Neurosis

Cursed with neurosis
Something i’m neglecting?
Not sure if i’m healing
Or disconnecting

The journey is painful
Can I reach reality?
A normalized state
Of neutrality

Can I find the place
Where i’m reconnected
One where i’m also
More protected

From paranoia
Thoughts of grandeur
Is it within grasp?
I’m not sure

Bipolar, anxiety
ADHD and schizophrenia
All these labels
Get the best of yah

All a result
Of a degenerative cerebellum
Prevents me from gaining
A kind of momentum

The brain can change
Form of plasicity
So I can find
That tranquility

Several kinds
Of medication
Yoga, breathing
And meditation

I find it exhausting
To go outside
So I pray at home
For a guide

Sometimes I feel
Like i’m losing control
But maybe this is part
Of reaching the goal

Relax into the moment
Time to surrender
Even when it’s like
My mind is in a blender

Dancing between
Sanity and insanity
Life of a mystic
Like those in Christianity

Grabbing the wheel tight
Controlling the show
But all I can do
Is just let go

Cross Roads Freestyle

I’ve reached a cross road
One leads to sanity
The other insanity
Which ones which
I don’t know
How do I grow
Do I go up high
Or down low
It feels like a riddle
Left or right
Up or down
I choose the middle
The access point
The key to the kingdom
I have no guide
But faith and feeling
Prayer and heart
It’s like an art
Mastered in time
Space and time
Time melts in space
I wonder aimlessly
People stare
Curiosity
In the city
See through the illusion
Master the fusion
Between left right up down
There’s the crown
Above the head of all
That answered the call
Single-pointed focus
Hit the mark
Opposite of sin
Begin to grin
Penetrate the world
Find a girl
Already in
No separation
Persuasion
Action and passion
Energize the thighs
Listen to the sighs
Release what’s not real
Now you can feel
Feel the Love
High vibration
Meditation
Natural high
Cutting down the wall
For the benefit of all